sleepless

I keep hoping my eyes will close

I'm praying my body will succumb to sleep

Just a few months ago, on a sleepless night like this

I had people to call, people I can count on.

Now I'm wide awake with no one.

It's guilt that keeps me from dialing,

Fear that keeps me from calling.

Am i just being ridiculous?

If the phone rings jarring him from his sleep will he be annoyed?

Angry?

My mind battles itself.

He said "anytime" but he must have been unaware that meant 12:49 on a school night.

I run my hand through my ensnarled hair,

I glance at my phone but there is no one there.

Tonight my world is empty.