I'm broke,

My heart has been shattered,

I have no more to give.

Every part of me aches in agony,

My pillow drenched with tears.

You shattered my heart.

I relied on you for years,

You gave me more than I deserved.

You loved me.

I planned on my time around you,

We tried to spend every minute together.

I loved you.

Now everything is a constanct reminder,

Even when I sob memories return.

I cannot be left in peace.

Maybe if you could see me this way,

You would understand how much I loved you.

But alas;

I'm broke,

My heart has been shattered,

I have nothing more to give.

(Written July 9, 2002)

The wind makes me shiver,

The dark atmosphere makes me blink.

I pull my coat around me tighter.

It's another cold December night,

I can see my breath puff from my mouth.

The moon is so clear, and the stars are so bright.

Then a single, perfect snowflake hits my nose.

Millions of tiny white flakes follow.

The ground becomes white and creamy.

Before long, snowflakes are stuck to my lashes.

Slowly I turn and walk inside,

Content.

This beautiful December night wrought the first snow.

(writtenN/A)

I look in the mirror,
I know what I see.

I wonder what everyone else sees.

That I'm selfish and whiny?

Or big hearted and open minded?

Do they see my weight or my flaws?

Do they see beauty and grace?

I want to know but knowing hurts.

Knowing that others see failure,

but hearing that they see radiance.

What am I really?

(written August 20, 2004)

Please be careful with my heart.

Its been horribly broken before.

I can't take any more pain,

I couldn't possibly cry one more tear.

Please don't make me try.

I want to trust you.

I want to let myself love you,

But please be careful with my heart.

(written N/A)